I always feel like the dawn of a New Year is about more than just resolutions. People feel like the past can be put behind them…the change of the calendar year brings about a fresh dose of motivation and focus. I am not necessarily a resolutions person, but I am very goal driven year-round. Though, when I do not accomplish a goal, I just re-set, tell myself its ok, that I will try harder next time, and give it another go. For some reason, 2013 feels different than other years. I think it is mostly due to the fact that my life is less focused on myself now that I am a mother. It is a little sad, but true when I say that it took having a child for me to see how happier I am when I am giving rather than taking. I feel like my self-goals are driven by my interest in wanting to be the best wife I can be, or best mother, or best friend, and by making it about them and not me, gives me the extra push that I need to actually follow through.
I made a before 30 goals list. I’ll add to it I am sure, but next week I will be entering my late twenties. Even typing that, I heard the theme music from the Tower of Terror. I am young, but getting older, and it is about time I figure out how to follow through on things. Running for instance. I like it, so why do I pretend like I hate it so much? I should do it more. So, I will. I want to find fun activities to do with Kinsey. Our days do not need to be the same. I want to be ok with messy. I want to not just tolerate mess, but create it with her. So, I will. I will throw flour and water in a bucket and let her dig her hands in it. I will give her a bunch of (non-toxic) paint, and let her make a mess in the bath tub. I will stop stressing out about the thousands of mega bloks all over our living room, and instead get down on my hands and knees and make her towers for her to knock over (though my heart does sink when I have spent a lot of time creating a solid foundation, only to have her throw it across the room). I want to have more fun this year. I catch myself feeling tightly wound. Why? I have no idea. I have no reason to let my panties get all tied up in the knot (is that the expression? If it is not, I am sorry, because it sounds weird to me too). A lot of 2012 was spent dealing with doctors and residual health issues post-pregnancy. 2013 started out that way, what with the hives and facial swelling…I know I can’t help that, but I can choose to not let it get me down. YOU HEAR THAT?! NOTHINGS GONNA GET ME DOWN!
Shine Bright Like a Diamond…
This year is going to rulez and kick 2012′s ass.
Tell me your goals.
Tell me your plans.
Tell me your words if you are doing #OneWord365.
This sort of stuff gets me excited.