I am officially at the point in this pregnancy where nothing is great. 33 weeks and 3 days, Kinsey is kicking me all the time and moving around which is the nice reminder that there is a point to all of this, but last week was excruciating. I went to Labor and Delivery twice, I dislocated my knee on Saturday, almost passed out in the Ikea Cafe, and have been gimping around the last few days with a bum leg. Graceful is the complete opposite of me right now.
I have a sense of humor. I like to laugh and I love making other people laugh. Up until now this has always been one of my greatest attributes. However, I realized that all of my joke making and silliness has caused everyone around me to not take me so seriously. So, when I say that things are really shitty right now, they think that it can’t be that bad because I’m still laughing. So this morning, I walked into my OB’s office determined to communicate my discomfort and constant state of stress about passing out while I’m going to the bathroom. My doctor walked in and as I started to explain my pain, I said “I know that I laugh a lot, but I am really having a hard time and I just need some solutions.” He looked up at me and said “Katie, I know you are miserable.” Something about the asian accent makes sympathy sound so much more genuine, because seriously, just as he finished the word ‘miserable,’ the tears came a flowin’ and let me tell you, they did not stop. The more sympathy I got from this cute little asian man, the more I cried.
In short, I eventually stopped crying. And my doctor said that if the fainting continues he would like to deliver early. We’ll check on Kinsey’s growth and make sure she can make her debut around 38 weeks. My pain is great, and my discomfort level is almost unbearable, but every time I talk to my Mom she reminds me of the point in all of this. Little Kinsey will be wonderful, and it will all be worth it. I am not going to die (at least they don’t think so), so I just need to carry on just a little bit longer.
Preggo Mammas, I feel you. And to the ones that say that pregnancy is awesome, they are full of it.